♪

yup. so give up on yourself. make me give up on you... because ure too much of a coward to try to be better.
yes u fucked up big time. yes u've fucked up many times before. now freaking PICK up.. and BE better! NAO.

so ure telling me gonna be the last fuckhole to walk out my life.
thanks ah. (narrowing this down to the 5 of you idiots)

"exactly. i dont do shit. u guys are always the ones who does crap to me. u guys have everything and u screw it up urself. so yeah. dont wish. just do it. if u guys lived awesome, u'd be so awesome. whereas not me. even if i be awesome, shit happens. so pick up now! so if u want me t give up on you, thts as good as saying u wna screw my life over. that all the ppl i hold close t my heart ever are sweardamn useless??!!? so the last few yrs of friendship were clearly a waste of me??"

swear man. if not for ur mistakes.. sweardamn change NOW for me!! damnit.

so REALLY? cant believe you are doing this to me... i know you are better. i know you are good.
even if u refuse and tell me i'm wrong... even if i'm really wrong.
... freaking LIE and MAKE IT UP. make the GOOD up. do it.

love yous for nothing.

--
funnily enough...
& before, during the night. was talking to adrian.
a: ommgg. it's such a reliefff! omg.. thanks poo. thanks so much i can actually talk to u about this. *blah blahbalh (it was actually just a damn trivial thing)
and i said i appreciated him being around too. and it's just that much easier to talk to him about things. we all know how i'm not one to express shit to people sometimes. it's just tht much easier if u just know things without me having to say it out loud.
so anyways, then he mentioned that if i turned out to be the world's best actor to have turned on him, he'd hire gaius to have me murdered. lol.

... but yeah. i guess it's just so much... that we can take already. he was obv joking. but then again. i wouldnt blame him if he wasn't. hahaha. because that day should never come. i must have done smthg really bad. lol.
but srsly.

seeeeeriously.

/edit.
aahahaha. epic --"
only came back into the house cos it's 6am and i realised mum/dad's prob gonna be awake for work. hahahah. they ddnt even hear me come in. i'm a damn ninja. ;D

anyways. yeah sigh. i'm sorry this had to happened to you. wthveh. ;(

yeah, me neither
4:17 AM

G.
To me, she will always be twenty-one
and I will always be twenty-three.

don't try to get in my head
you won't like the mess

you jump, i jump, jack



my designs*
instagram
tumblah!
follow me TWITTER!
my works**
friendster
bebo
orisinal
facebook
free rice [FEED THE HUNGRY]

strings;; ariel ben celia cherish cheryl chrislynn daen dan denise divinia eric esther evlyn gary gene gerald gracewong isabel isadora jane jennifer jiahui jollyn jordan josh joxin ken kenny kern koid larissa leticia matthew nadia nicole sally sara serene shaun suren tabitha xinying zameer

full black converse shoes (:
iphone covers! haha
huuuge world map
starbucks original tumblr
camera bag
clothes, dresses, coats
cranberry bodyshop stuffz ;D
beer
ice cream machine
remote shutter release
black laces
maroon VANS
hair
city lights





archives LOCKED.