Sunday, September 4, 2011
♪ oh, but my day wasn't half over
i don't expect you to clear up the air; clear my name and right your wrongs
i don't expect to NOT shoot ur mouth off to anyone who doesn't know me; to start with
i don't expect anyone to brave up and stand up for me
i don't expect anyone to be freaking honest just cause it's too hard
i don't expect you take my interests into account considering how i've upheld yours in the previous years
i don't have expectations that you match up to what i do for my friends
i don't expect you to be a good friend in turn. just because i'd give myself for u.
i don't expect you to be selfless and considerate
because humans, you disappoint.
i will not ask you to stop and never do it again. i will not ask you to right your wrongs.
at the end of the day, every living soul is accountable to God.
to all my friends i care about, u want to be selfish? fine. i just want you to be happy.
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an almost heartfelt goodbye. and we will leave it at that. when things are almost heartfelt.
closing the gap only leads to downfall. we have lived right up to the tip of that fixed amount of gap. because life is cruel like that.
as much as will be happening; any significant events in new chapters of life that u may want to be a part of... it is just not any of each other's business anymore.
not any new schools, new friends, good grades. not any daily trivial incidents, any job interviews, drunken nights. not any won tournaments, re-enlistments or medical appointments. not any sleepless nights, new loves, new lights, new toys.
as much as i wish, it can't be any of our business anymore.
thrs 2 parallel lines, a lot in common, you think it is sad that they never meet.
but then thrs the every other lines (ie. perpendicular); that meet once and then drifts apart forever.
& words don't mean crap. it is what you
actually do that speaks to people.
& then i wondered what if words were all you had? -
well, then u have nothing. & that is not true. thr is always smthg u can do.
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so yeah. for all friends and people who have a problem with me or anyone. cld u please, go to the source of your bitchiness. please talk about it. rather than bitch and be bitter.
only small people talk about other people.
so u either say it out loud. or u fucking hold ur peace for the rest of time. don't complain.
- but please, if ure gonna hold ur peace, at least try ONCE to say it out loud to the person. not enough, try again... try until ure satisfied it's irreparable. then move on. i assure you even if u choose to continue to be small and BITCH for the rest of your days, at least the intensity would be on a decreasing scale.
still. overall. good day (:
best night with jess scott kenny. if u asked what we were laughing about, i wouldn't know where to start or what to remember.
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LOL. i was gonna open my rm door and i saw the door knob move. i knew it was mum. but i was like AARRRHHH~~. with my hands up. mum opened and freaking jumped "why wld u do that!!! naughty girl!!!!"
and then ltr. i put on my headphones and was blasting guetta. i ddnt know mum came in. she shoved some weird towel thing in my face asking if it was mine. i went AaaAaaAarrHhrhrhRH. really weirdy. LAWL.
checkmate.
yeah, me neither
4:02 AM
