Saturday, October 8, 2011
♪ music is the language of memory
massive convo
"it sucks fr ppl to be so demanding all the time. like i can be a better person. no. not rlly. what you actually mean is that i'm not better enough to suit ur needs. it's almost like bad karma for being friends.
just cos someone doesn't love u the way u want. doesn't mean they don't love u w all they have. "
so what's better? the one who doesn't love or the one who loves all and shows everyone?
"yeah, right? so doesn't it make it feel like you love and lost all. so when it hurts, u know u must be doing something right"
because 01. when they demand more, u know u must be good to deserve that. 02. and when ppl don't love u back the same, u know u must be loving well; that u gave so much more.
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OMG. & today i just realised, that some dickhead of my life holds a resemblance to - KORKOR!!!! aaaaaaaahahahaha. omg.
... aaahhah HAH HAHAHAHAHA. O_o;;
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spent over an hour at teasme today. [i shld learn to chillax at work. felt s
o tired just cos i was like D; at the NOT top condition of the kitchen area - spotless clean yo! why let the mess pile up?]one thing i've never done at teasme before, cos obv, not strong enough --->
because, why? back track.
i do the darnest things. parents convinced me to go to the adult sg club. because there was PIZZA! haha. and might as well go have dinner, so we don't have to cook at home XP
mum: oh. thrs 2 ppl thr that u shld meet. they're in uni too and they said they know u.
& i was wondering. WTH. thrs younger ppl at this thing!? students? what. must be some fresh off the boat people who are total nerds and don't know any better.
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i get there....
eng eu and pamela.
HAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAA. omg. wth, guys!?
& i ddnt get to chat to them much either. some kiwi old man was seriously bombarding their faces.
so yeah. hung around for an hour or so before i left. & decided to visit stvn at work. helped him ard the shop fr an hour. LOL at the idiot trying to lift the syrup thing damn high. the first time he lifted it was cos we thought th syrup was running out. and suddenly a huge blob fell out and so fortunately landed in the funnel. we were like "OMG. WHOAH! crap. that was so close"
but man. the only interesting thing at that sg dinner was watching my mum note down a recipe . and then just to be funny, she wanted a recap and turned it into a game; testing the other aunties - "how many eggs! how many cups of flour!" ... and then replying them with "good girl!" lol.
i don't think she realised half of them had it written down in their phone/hand/paper too
and also that ALL of them were in their 50s and waay over the phase of being called 'girl'.
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so at what age do we draw the line of when a child should know right from wrong? at what age, do we impute liability? at what age do we allow and accept decision making capacities?
later at home,.. dad came in and told me that i should socialise with the ADULTS more often. because apparently, i should "grow up".
i just kept quiet. yeah i get ur point
but to be honest, dad, it was pretty boring. the only thing i talked to the ppl about, was the fascination of foreigners over singapore's singlish... yada yada...
i am perfectly capable of holding stimulating conversations with my own friends. you no need to worry.
just because they are 20 years older than me doesn't necessarily mean they are all that superior in social discourse.
and also because, the sg club has one of the worst environments for any intellectual interactions. yes, really. especially when it is an unofficial, informal get together.
& also, because the last time i tried to speak to someone of supposedly high social ranking - the ambassador for chch/sg, a judge of the supreme court in sg (apprntly?), he had almost NO interest in discussing legal issues. he ended up talking about dry skin, moisturisers and asking his MAID to help him cause he cldnt reach his back.
WHAT? are u cereal? "i don't want to live on this planet anymore".
just because someone is better aged in years, doesn't mean they are better-spoken.
yeah, me neither
4:15 PM
