Tuesday, November 22, 2011
♪ i can't stand to fly
i'm not that naive
siblings i never, yet always had ?
cousins - sound freaking distant to me. we're closer than that (or so I like to think). hahaha. at least I know me and celia were sisters for the most part of our lives. but obv, every opportunity she gets to be silblings w her 'real siblings' she'll ditch me. no doubt. boo. hate.
'cause jie & kor were always the mean older siblings. apprntly jiejie used to give me a lot of bruises (??? lol) and korkor just scares the shit out of me.
i remember this HUGE scolding from him once. srsly retarded. i was doing my homework in kindergarden writing the word "KAN - see" in chinese. and how was i to know the top bit was 3 STRAIGHT LINES? freaking computer typography and letters sometimes.... well anyways, my fault.. i refused to believe him. the hell man... so scary. i cried for hours. and i could hear celia reminding porpor every few mintues... that i've been crying for a very long time. LOL. i think she came over a few times to give me tissues. but i was srsly too scared to move an inch. so after that she wiped the tears for me??
BUT ANYWAYS. korkor still has a soft side. just not to us. HAHAHA. but to stray kittens. "korkor..." WHAT!!!?!?!?!!?!?? "outside.... got... kitty.... no mommy..." & he'll take/steal food from our fridge for them ;D and me and celia were too scared to pet them. so we'll just watch him stroke the cats. "not scary la... just touch" hahaha, he was carrying them. sooo nice.
guess i'll never really blame them for anything. it's just the way they were. i knew they carried a lot of hurt and that they were angry. lol. not necessarily that i linked the 2 together at the time. but it's not like they ..... HATED hated me like they'd run a car over me.
i don't rmb much of jie, 'cause she was always in her room STUDYING. and we can't touch or even breathe on her stuff.
see. this was us, then (:
& that's yi ma. their mum. she must have passed away not long after this photo was taken? our ages seem about right. then they developed withdrawal symptoms and asshole behavior escalated x300.
& jiejie shutup for years, that even now... raymond has problems peeling layers to get her to open up.
:( i'm sorry u guys had to go through all that. and also that ur dad was just a DICK after that.
my mum stood in a lot as their beloved aunty and guardian. more than anything man.
hey hey, i can rap WHERE IS THE LOVE - bep! & we were bobbing to it
me: what's wrongg w the world m..____ ...... people living like they ain't got no *pause* .......
celia: ...MOMMA!!!
*continue...*
:( she was freaking sensitive to the M word back in the days ok. made me sensitive to it too.
i'm pretty sure a lot of fees and crap, my mum paid for. and any important ceremonies, my parents went instead.
hahhaa porpor (: i can imagine korkor frowning like death and snobbing her after.
kor posted this on fb sometime ages ago.
me: porpor! (:
kor: yeah. i miss her too
& celia is the kind who's super not sentimental (towards me anyway). and also the kind who'd forget to wave goodbye to my mum after hugging her *AH HEM* dad goodbye.... on to her melb excursion trip in primary. which, btw i think my mum contributed towards as well!?!?
or like.. NOT want to sleepover together at porpor's... when this was a few wks before she passed away. wth. heart crack. made me angry.
extreme best and worst.
she's like the meanest now. is it 'cause she's the youngest? not OLD enough yet to make it totally inhumane to continue stupid attitudes? or because she is the closest to me? or she's actually that mean? lolol yada yada yada.
extreme best and worst.
she's like the meanest now. is it 'cause she's the youngest? not OLD enough yet to make it totally inhumane to continue stupid attitudes? or because she is the closest to me? or she's actually that mean? lolol yada yada yada.
wasn't til like a decade and a bit that i finally get to TALK to kor and jie. hahaha. because i'm so 'not used to it', everything they say/do is freaking funny and interesting to me. we cool, yo.
but celia comes first. and i come second. VERY FAAAR second... if even existent :( booo. but oh well.
or maybe because they are happily married ;D yay. seriously. thank you God for raymond and cheryl. really really God given. thanks big G.
srsly, at jie's wedding... i felt totally like a "thank u, raymond" moment. ty ty ty ... :')
baahaha. we need to marry off celia soon. just so she'd be nicer to me. farout. i think im the only person in the whole she can be crazy unreasonable to. srsly WTF moments. THEY can be mean, but can u not be unreasonable!?!? we're freaking 20 already. hello!?!?!
weren't u meant t be my awesome twin sister? [yeah, we used t be mistaken for twins?? WHUUT!? hello, one's waaay taller than the other!?!? damn racist. just cos we were tanned as hell from damn a lot of swimming]
*to mer* : hey hey hey, does melvyn want to meet celia? LOL. let's go holiday! they can talk about church and we'll be the retarded rebel siblings. lol
me: hey heyehey! wna go FIJI!? got sales!!!!
mer: WHAT THE HELL we gon do there!?!?
me: activities la! and i thought theres awesome sceneries
mer: u know it's a romantic getaway right
me: oh.
hahha because i wanted to be like korkor.
hahaha me and cheryl were irritating him on purpose so much that whole trip. tehehee. cute.
PS: why's the paint on that guy's nose.... worn off??
P.S.S: that's jiejie's beatles shirt i stole. hahahah. and one day raymond told me he bought it. it was a couples shirt they had. BAAHAHA oh well? she's the one who agreed to the deal. my incredibly expensive teasme tea tumblr with that shirt. (THAT SHE DOESNT EVEN USE! OMG. give it back!)
sure, if this and that didn't happen, you'd have turned out better? maybe. (like how celia cld have been a straight A+ student. crap man, we don't doubt that. she was halfway there)
but regardless, i'm proud of you anyway (: just LOOK
celia's head visual designer/whatevr of topshop okay. bring it on (;
and now i'm older too! don't feel so useless. I'LL EAT YOU. i can stand up for them if anyone tries anything faaarney.
or... protect them.... & most times from themselves. HAHAHA. y'know... like feel more in control of the atmosphere sometimes so keep them from setting off or arguing among themselves. 'cause omg, they can get so consumed by annoyance/anger sometimes *roll eyes* esp when it's not even a legit thing to be angry about. [i know what ure thinking, i do that too... but NO. trust me, no. it's different.]
and also, i'm going to SUE celia's dubai's forever-21 managers in the distant future. LOL
and jiejie's contractors!!!
and korkor's other contractors! but... then again, he's alrdy dealt with that... scolded the contractor until the guy teared. BAAHAHA IN YOUR FACE, BRO. who tell u to scold cheryl!? screw u la try to bully her. this is what u get! STOOOOOPID. aaaa ha ha ha ha ha aha. u think ure cool? well, korkor's fiercer!
scars remind you that the past is real
HAHAHA at this photo. just sit anywhere. everywhere. just take the damn photo
ps: ^SEE! my mum's favourite -_______-"
now we have another little cousin. ew. go away. i am the one and only.
does korkor shout at u? NOO. has jiejie ever pinched u? NOOO! do u spend the whole day laughing w celia at really lameeeee 'jokes'? NUUOOOO.
.... D;
yeah. cos korkor holds ur hand across the streets and jie lets u play on her iphone right.
damn u.
& then i coach her on playing 'sky burger' anyway. "OI!!! WHY U TAKE THAT!?!?" and then she giggles when i shout at her anyway. hahaha.
'cause all the others just patronise her these days. tsk.
yeah, me neither
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