Sunday, September 16, 2012
♪ set me ablaze
over generations, Lord. I am crying out for more
came back from PLANETUNI camp. it was amazing. had a really good time bonding with the girls in my urban life. (: sooo funny.
encounters w God were amazing. felt His presence so much throughout camp.
brace urself for a breakdown the amazing supernatural i've encountered this wkend --->
on the first night sess, youth pastor came to pray for me. and i was actually a bit shy cos it's been a while since we had the holy annointed praying sess. so i was actually standing at some corner. so basically when i fell, i was half bent leaning against a wall. LOL anyway, basically i was shaking quite a bit. smthg i've never experienced. my eyes were twiching so much it was as good as being half open. however, i cldn't rlly open my eyes when i tried. so i just stayed thr in that uncomfortable position and basked in the presence. i was down for the longest time that i've ever experienced. and then... i cld feel/hear ppl ard me starting to hangout and talk. then... man. i heard mervyn's voice praying over me. he was seated just right across me.
it was soo amazing man. one of your bestfriends of ever and one of the ppl u rlly look up to... prays over you. best feeling. love you big bro.
thank u for coming over to me. thank u for finding me. hahaha.. i was like hidden away in some corner w ppl around me.
& super appreciate when u sat down and put ur arms ard me.. and we were huddled like old times. baaha. bcos i know how it's church and ure at college and y'know. need to maintain ur rep. (:
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2nd night...
youth pastor again... he called out that God wanted to heal. I felt my heart leap. and i knew whatever it was, i wanted to respond to the call. he started by mentioning 'knees'.... 'ankles'.... and just when i was wondering how he was going to phrase MY healing call, ....... the most amazing thing happened. he actually said it. how did i not think of that descript. but anwyay, i immediately knew that that was me (he said SOME PEOPLE here). anyway, my hands went up and the ppl around me prayed. felt much love from the few close enough t lay hands on me in my urban life. body totally shot through w heat.
then later on when they opened up the floors again for prayer, this lady came over to me to pray. and because ppl in front of me were getting slain and i had t constantly readjust my position, i opened my eyes the few secs before she got to me. it was like she KNEW exactly that she wanted to pray for me. i closed my eyes again and she laid hands. the only few words i got from her was 'receive' blah balbh blah 'healing'. and then her short string of words stopped and she repeatedly told me to 'receive, receive, receive just receive'.
then, same thing as the night before. but at least i was lying flat on the ground. i sure hope thr wasn't someone's head near my legs that i cld quite potentially have been kicking. but man.... it's just amazing. a few times i thought i was coming out so i tried t bring my knees up, but i ended up just being filled w the presence and shaking again. took me a very very long while before i cld ltr make myself sit up. which ended up making me bend over cross legged and my legs still shaking under me again anyway.
ltr strong hands from wendy and nicole came down on my back which kinda pulled me out of it. and they were talking t me; asking and all. ltr the 2 girls prayed and talked to me.
apprntly they were looking for me and when they found me. wendy & nicole just stood over me and broke out crying.
wendy told me that i had no idea how many ppl have been keeping me in prayers. thank u (: i'll remember that i'm not alone.
while i was down, i've also heard daryl's voice. andrew's. maybe mervyn? i wasn't sure. and thr was also another girl whom i assumed was praying for me because her voice was the most distinct. and also the things she said, it were as if it were my heart speaking.
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anyway, it was pretty weird. maybe i haven't got quite the hang of it yet. or maybe my eyes twitched so much i cld half see blurry figures around me, i cldn't quite be absorbed in the realm of His presence. but i was just there. feeling everything supernatural yet also sub conscious.
i feel like i am getting back to where i was when i was young and on fire for God. so zealous for something beyond what the earthly life cld give. sure, it had taken me MONTHS to actually get myself back into this spirit. and it won't stop here.
everything is a climb. one step at a time.
"fear of the Lord, is the first step" - (daryl's voice when he prayed beside me)
"let her life be a living testimony to her friends" - (lady's voice) - not to answer their questions through words and knowledge but way of life.
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more of your spirit; more of your presence; fill me again
so i want to believe i am healed and claim healing by His power. even though over the last day... i've felt that something's different, yet i'm not quite healed... but whatever it is. we'll keep believing yeh. eventually...
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can't wait to tell mum all about it. haha. and receive more advice.
one step at a time, baby
set ablaze, but i won't burn out dry
yeah, me neither
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